Q&A

My doctor said something to me yesterday that resonated- I was talking to her about what's gone on the past few months (getting pregnant again, having a miscarriage and d&c again, figuring out where to go from here) and in talking about next steps she said that it's definitely a lot of uncertainty to deal with. And when you stop and think about it, it is kind of crazy how much uncertainty we all deal with every day. A miracle we're all not crazy (crazier?).

My short list of things I don't know, to get it off my chest:

- if Jacob and I will be able to have our own baby

- if there is anything genetically wrong

- if going to a specialist/ doing a bunch of testing will even tell us a cause for the previous miscarriages

- even if they find a likely cause, if the next pregnancy would work out

- if we would have a healthy child if a pregnancy did work out

- if we adopted, if it would be a "normal" (whatever that means), healthy baby

- how long it would take to adopt

- how many more months I may have to be pregnant without having a baby

I guess that's why it's about the journey and finding happiness in each day. Cause I know I don't have answers for that list and there isn't anyone, medical expert or otherwise, who can provide us the answers either.